Why have I decided to write a blog?
I am not sure I can explain why. My thoughts are like a game of 'pick up sticks'; its hard to explain one thing without having to explain many other things.
Why, at its simplest, is because I have no one else to talk too. Of course, I have friends and family and people who really care about me. But, as close as I maybe feel to some of them, I do not feel comfortable talking to them about everything that I think and feel.
I am a young woman, but sometimes I think I am living more like I am a little old lady.
My relationship, to everyone else, seems perfect. I always hear how wonderful my boyfriend is. And I wonder what is wrong with me because I don't feel the same.
And I have these urges.
I may be the only one who ever reads a word of what I write. I hope not, but if that turns out to be the case, I will be okay with it. I am looking at this as an opportunity to get all these thoughts out of my head. And then, from there, maybe things will be less confusing and more clear to me.
Wish me luck,
Rachel
I am not sure I can explain why. My thoughts are like a game of 'pick up sticks'; its hard to explain one thing without having to explain many other things.
Why, at its simplest, is because I have no one else to talk too. Of course, I have friends and family and people who really care about me. But, as close as I maybe feel to some of them, I do not feel comfortable talking to them about everything that I think and feel.
I am a young woman, but sometimes I think I am living more like I am a little old lady.
My relationship, to everyone else, seems perfect. I always hear how wonderful my boyfriend is. And I wonder what is wrong with me because I don't feel the same.
And I have these urges.
I may be the only one who ever reads a word of what I write. I hope not, but if that turns out to be the case, I will be okay with it. I am looking at this as an opportunity to get all these thoughts out of my head. And then, from there, maybe things will be less confusing and more clear to me.
Wish me luck,
Rachel
Oh goodness. There must be so many of us out there. You sound just like me.
ReplyDeleteThank you! This sums it up exactly.
ReplyDelete*kisses*
~Tori